It doesn't matter what others think :)

People are always judging each other and

the truth is,

they're not very good at it.

Don't put a lot of concern into what people think of you.

You weren't created to please and entertain everyone.

You were created to be you,

so... feel good about yourself :)

Love without effort

Real love is simple, everyday kind of thing. 

A smile, a hug, an encouragement.

Continuous love without effort.

Stay tuned for the next update :) 

See you guys soon! ♥

Repost 'My Mother, My Hero'

Hui Wen's account on what really happened: 

"I remember. I remember everything.

A few months ago in English class, my teacher asked us to write about the person who we admire. I wrote about my mum. A month ago for my English March Test paper, the topic I wrote about was “My Hero”. I wrote about my mum. During my test, i had a writers block so I simply wrote out everything i knew about my mum: her childhood, achievements, etc. My mum is my hero. She always has been, she always will be.

20th April 2013.

Mama left early in the morning for some event her Kiwanis Club’s K-Kids had planned. She came back home with lunch for me and milo ais. I remember grumbling to her because I didn’t want to follow my parents jungle trekking. I did anyway. We had to set up a trail for my father’s running group so mama was carrying a bag with just plain paper in it. I remember grumbling to my mum as we went up and down the hills of Gasing. She told me we’d be out soon. After 2 hours of trekking in the jungle, we finally hit the road. It was the road in Gasing leading up to the temple. We decided to walk back down to the car.

As we walked down the steep road, there was nobody there. No people, no cars. Just the two of us. As we nearly reached the first house, we heard a motorbike sound from behind. We turned around and saw two men on a motorbike. Mama said walk further in the pavement so we did. As the motorbike drove past us, they stopped. The man from behind jumped off. My mum pushed me to the back and told me to go. The man attacked my mum straight away, without saying any words. The knife he used was just a normal kitchen knife, the blade was about 10cm long. As my mum tried to protect herself, she turned to her left, only to be stabbed twice on the back of her right shoulder. She was struggling to escape. The attacker then proceeded to stab the back of her left shoulder. Mama tried so hard to escape. She fell on the ground and the attacker pulled her on the road and stabbed her thigh. I tried to help but the attacker thrusted the knife my way so i ran back further. I couldn’t do anything but scream at the top of my lungs. I screamed and screamed. The attacker hopped on the bike and rode off.

I remember.
I remember watching my mums body lying on the road, all the blood oozing out. The attacker did not manage to get any of my mums belongings. She told me to call my dad. I ran down the hill looking for help. The first house i went to, the maid (who saw everything that happened) ran in and did not even try to help me. I ran further down and saw a car. They saw me and stopped. And I told them what happened. The driver, Mr Lai told me to get in and we drive up to my mum. Mr Lai called the ambulance and the police while i tried to keep my mum conscious. There was blood everywhere. My mum just kept saying “save me”. Her voice was so week. My dad reached the site 10 minutes later, after running all the way. Mama kept telling us that she couldn’t breathe. I prayed and prayed. She was slowly losing herself. We tried our best to keep her awake and conscious. The police arrived. We put her in the police car since the ambulance hadn’t arrived. As we reached down the road, the ambulance was there so they transferred mum into the ambulance.

I remember.
I remember sitting in the ambulance, holding my mums hand and trying to talk to her but she didn’t respond. I remember crying. The paramedics were doing all they could do at that point. I remember calling Eu Lim, who was at church to pray for my mum. We reached the hospital in 3 minutes. They rushed my mum to the emergency was. I wasn’t allowed to enter and i was so so scared. My dad had followed Mr Lai’s car and they hadn’t reached yet. I had to settle my mums registration and then i had to talk to the police. My dad arrived. Then my friends arrived. I sat at the doorway of the hospital, praying and praying. 10 minutes later, my dad came out and told me my mum didn’t make it. I dropped in the middle of the hospital floor, screaming. Everyone was looking at me, but i didn’t care. A bunch of doctors came out to get me, they took me to a special room. They questioned me and they told me about how my mum was already gone when we were in the ambulance. They tried their best to revive her.

I remember.
I remember coming home. My friends just sat in silence. I just sat in silence. I was covered in blood, mama’s blood. I had to get myself together. I had to bathe. We broke the news to my sister through Face Time and that was really hard to do. Slowly, people started coming. It was hard seeing my aunts and uncles cry, my parent’s close friends, my close friends & to know i had to keep it all together. It was really hard, telling my story to everyone. It’s really hard to even close my eyes for awhile because i see it replaying in my head over and over again. Watching my mum lying in her pool of blood and not being able to do anything. Not being able to save her.

People come, then people leave. All i hear are “I’m so sorry for your loss” or “my condolences”. All i hear are people questioning me about what happened, since i was the sole witness. But i am so tired of telling this story over and over again. I am so tired of hearing other people tell this story. This is my story. This is the truth. Newspapers and reporters may twist it around and exaggerate to the whole world, but this story will remain the truth forever.

I am truly grateful and appreciative to everyone who came, whether it was for a short period, or a long time. Thank you to those who’ve brought a little bit more of hope and joy to me, even though you guys didn’t try. Thank you to those who’ve brought food and drinks, and flowers. Thank you to everyone who called, texted, whatsapped, facebook-ed and tweeted me. I dont know how i became a trending topic overnight (#prayforhuiwei). I was mad at first, but then i realised how much my family had all of your love and support. Whether i know you or not, whether you knew my mum or not, all your kind words really helped. My mother was such an amazing and beautiful person.

I remember.
My mum’s last words to me were “I love you so much” dying there, on the road. I watched it all. I watched it all slip out of my hands. Now my life feels so empty. I keep thinking to myself that this is all a dream. Maybe I’d wake up and be able to avoid this from happening. Maybe if someone pinched me I’d wake up from this nightmare. But this is reality, and I have to face the facts. I have to face the fact that I’m alone now. I have to face the sounds of crying and wailing from the other room. I have to face the facts that I’m going to grow up motherless, clueless and confused. It won’t be easy, but I will get through this.

Ma,
I love you so much. And I am so sorry I had to watch you die. I am so sorry I couldn’t save you. But you’re with God now. Ma you’re such a great person. Beautiful inside and out. And I thank you for teaching me your ways. Thank you for always teaching (scolding) me to be a better person. Even tho we’ve had our moments, and times we didn’t see eye to eye, you’ll always be my best friend. Who’s going to pick me up from school now. Who am I going to say “HEY MA” to and tell them about my day. Who’s going to cuddle up with me on the couch and be lazy for awhile.

Ma,
Remember how you used to come into my room while I was studying, and hug me then tickle me. Remember how you used to sing me to sleep when I was young. Or how you used sing when you’re happy. You had a beautiful voice. Remember how we sat on the couch, looking for coloured beads to do arts & crafts. Remember every single day we spent together.

Ma,
I just saw your body, lying in the coffin. You look so beautiful, peaceful, just like you’re sleeping. And I have the biggest urge to scream “wake up”. Thank you,Ma. For giving me life, for giving me love. You taught me everything good in my life. You were always selfless, God-fearing. You were my strong pillar of hope and love. And even though you’re no longer here with us, you’re with God. And you’re happy, just like how you appeared in Lissa’s dream. And I do hope justice will be served. They’re working on finding the criminals, ma. They will be caught.

We all miss you ma, we miss you so much. Goh Ee and Sar Ee has already appointed themselves as my ‘mama’ and I see you so much of you in them. And it’s not going to be the same anymore. Nothing will be the same anymore. You’re not going to watch me graduate, you’re not going to watch me get married. You’re not going to be there to take care of my children. But I know you are with us in spirit, and you’re always watching over us. Please give me the strength and courage to move forward with my life. Please give me the motivation to be better. To be more like you. To spread the love and joy. Papa, Tache and I will always be grateful for you are the biggest blessing God has given. And maybe you’ve done too much good so The Lord called you home. And you are safe now, safe with God. He will watch over you (and us) and protect you. You are safe from all the evil now.

I will make you proud, mama. I will make everyone proud. I love you so much. I’ll love you every single day of my life, and I’ll never forget whatever you’ve done for me. Thank you so much. Rest In Peace, mama, I love you."

It's so sad to read this, just half way reading, I'm already been brought to tears. It is so hard to accept all these. Especially 3 cases in 2 days. My deepest condolences to Hui Ying and Hui Wen's mother, Aunty Irene Ong, Alex's father and Harry's grandmother. May the almighty Lord bless you on top and your family below here :) Our thoughts and prayer go out to their family.

Failure In Disguise

Just don't give up.

Blessed Easter :)

It's the last day of March! :) Before the month passed, I'd like to wish everyone ....

HAVE A BLESSED EASTER! :)

I know I've been abandoning my blog long enough but I think it's time to pick it up again :p And as people know, Easter is a Christian festival and holiday celebrating the resurrection of Jesus Christ on the third day after His crucifixion at Calvary 2000 years ago. And today, after 2000 years, we're all ready to celebrate this memorable day :) So i woke up as early as 6am. And waking up early is killing me as usual, but whatever is it, I still managed to drag myself to Luther Centre for the earliest service ever xD and I thank God for the awesome weather. Now, let the pictures do all the talking ;)

Dull sky, but nice weather :)

Our bulletin of the week. He has risen!

On this memorable day, I'd also want to take this opportunity to congrats those who decide to get water baptism :) 

The confirmation of Faith.

Liwen :) 

Group picture. Okay, I've no idea where they're looking at. HAHA! too many cameras.

And finally, after the service, PHOTO SESSION! 

Yours truly and the very sleepy Jermyn :p

Awesome guitarist :)

Jia Ying :) pretty pianist. (ignore my sleepy, pale, make-up free face)

Kenneth Lee, BFF ♥

Kenneth's bro :) Meet Er ge Kierren!

Pretty mama and the 2 lil cuties, Joel and Joash ♥

He's too cute, so yeah, close up of fatty Joash babyy ♥♥♥

Katrina and Joel :) the future couple xDDD 

Daniel and Katrina :)

Last but not least. My youths, friends, companions, brothers and sisters in Christ :) Believe it or not, there's a reason everyone placed in our life. Some are there to show us how wonderful life is, while some of them are there to give you experiences of life. I'm glad I have you guys :D

From left, Liyen, Beverley, Liying, Kenneth, Jia Ying, Liwen, Yours truly and Andrew ♥

Oh yeah! Thanks to Cherlene, we took some polaroid pictures too! :) but I'll keep that to myself. heh! 

I always wonder, if God could do so much for us despite of our sins, why can't we at least, TRY to forgive and love the people around us, despite the mistakes and hurtful things that they do to us? :) Because one of the last thing Jesus said while hanging from the cross were words of forgiveness. 

Once again

Happy Easter everyone! ♥

Till then! xx

Kindness is contagious :D

Don't believe me? try it out! give it out to someone :)
Think about it, what is something nice that you could do for a friend, family or even a stranger?
Once you have thought of it, do it and then move on to somebody else.
Before long, you'll start seeing results.
Try it, it's contagious :)

Crystal's sweet 19th! :) ♥

I'm back! As I promised :) It has been a long day for me since the morning class, until blingbling's (that's how peiling and I used to call crystal) belated birthday celebration and preview at night :) But I need to get this done while the memories and still fresh :D 

Back to the topic, yesterday was the super gorgeous+sexy CRYSTAL ONG PEH SEE's 19th birthday! ♥ (actually she's the one always claiming that herself is sexy -.-) Due to some problems, we couldn't celebrate with her on the actual day so we had no choice but to postpone it to the next day. We had the celebration at Wong Kok, Pavilion since it's near me and it's a place that everyone knows. We actually planned to meet up around 1pm but again, due to the sudden replacement class of mine so we can only meet up after my class around 4.30pm :( 

And after my class, I literally ran to pavilion to meet up with peiling and a new guy that she eagerly wants to introduce to us with my high heels on xD So this time, it's not only me, crystal, harry and peiling, but we have another member! :) 

Meet Zhen Yang! The youngest but the tallest among 5 of us. Sort of a good looking guy with a BIG cartoon eyes that make every girl jealous :p Fuhhh! Killer look! :p 

While waiting for the birthday girl and Harry, Peiling and I took pictures as usual :D ♥

Pretty hair colour we have here! :) ♥ ♥ ♥

And after almost an hour waiting for the exclusive guests of ours, they're finally here! :D Since it was her birthday, we had a super HUGE milk tea with a cute little bear as birthday present for the birthday girl :)

Oh drinkssssss! 

Meanwhile when we're having our meal, we did not stop taking pictures :p Shall let the pictures do the talking for now :)

Yours truly and birthday girl! ♥

Another one, 2 weirdo posing with wedges. LOL

(love the effect :p) ♥

Meet the 2 young pretty girls, peiling and crystal :) the 2 loves of mine ♥

Throughout the whole time in the restaurant, I never stop complaining about how third wheel I feel because both girls came with their companion except for me. I do not have one anyway :( But no matter how much I complain, it is still very happy to see them together :)

Let's meet the 4 month old ultimate sweet couple, Crystal and Harry! ♥ ♥

Awwww! Look at the pictures below, how sweet is it?! Single ladies, do you feel my pain now? :/

With the cute little teddy bear.

One of my favorite picture of the day. Favorite people in my life :)

As what I've mentioned, I'm the only one who went alone, so here's another unofficial couple which expected to be an official couple soon. Ohmyyyyyy! Love birds ♥

Peiling and Zhen Yang, a kinda awkward one xD

Second favorite photo of the day! These 2 will definitely make a great couple! :)

Okayyyyy! Had enough lovey dovey photos! some girls photo coming up! ;) 

Definitely not an unfamiliar face. 3 of us, from left, peiling, yours truly and crystal.

xoxo! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Trying to act cool, but.... failed.

Weirdo! :p

I know we took alot of picturesss but this is only part of it. No matter what, this will be the memories of 3 of us :) And when we took enough pictures of ourselves, we finally realize that we had ignored the 2 poor guys for more than 30 mins! To prevent them from falling asleep while waiting for us, we suggest to have a picture for both of them. 

2 handsome little boy, Harry and Zhen Yang.

And most importantly, group photo shouldn't be left out!

5 of us :) Simply love this! everyone looked so great here! ♥

Take 2! Switch position :p

After we had enough laugh and talking craps, we separated around 7pm, Peiling, Zhen yang and I are heading to Puchong office for a hebatttttt chinese preview with all ours young, great leaders/partners :) We suppose to reach around 8pm but we were caught in the traffic for at least 45 minutes -.- During the journey to office, we had so much fun in the car, sing out loud as if there's no tomorrow :)

Overall, today was a really good kick start for the third month of 2013! And once again, I wanna take this opportunity to thank the Lord for bringing such amazing friends into my life. No doubt, Crystal is a wonderful person with such great personality :) Thank you for always there for me when I needed someone to talk to, and when I don't know what to do, especially the time when I'm going through the ungodly pain that would probably tear me into pieces. I bet you've no idea how inspiring, supportive, caring, considerate you are! :) I know I said this before but you are really a blessing to me. Like an angel that God sends to me, to be by my side when days go by. Do always remember that we'll always here for you, no matter what goes wrong,

Same goes to peiling. I loveeeeeee you both! Don't be so touched okay? :p To prevent you for tearing up, I'll be a mean bitch to remind you again that YOU'RE NO LONGER 18! YOU'RE 19 ALREADY, GETTING OLDERRRRR! hahahahaha! xoxo ♥♥♥

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAYYYY! ♥ ♥ ♥ 

I promise I'll be back soon with another post. For those who don't remember how I look like since I've not updated my blog for yearssss, here's a solo picture of me :D credits to Tan Pei Ling ♥ 

Till then until the next post :)

Cheers! ♥