Pathetic me

I can't be a family member which listen to family completely

But I also can't hold on to my own principles

I never have the complete self confidence

And I do not have complete low self esteem

I don't have complete talent and skill

I also did not do my best

I never own a real relationship no matter with friends or family

But I also never give my heart to anyone

I am pathetic

ain't I?

Why should I live in such a pathetic way?

I've asked myself more than a thousand or million times

Everytime when I wanted to do something according to my feeling and will

But the outcome seems bad

then i will question myself

what wrong i did again?

Sadly

There will never a answer for me

nope..

should be

there is never a answer which can make me satisfied

Should I continue my life like this?

Suddenly

I feel like going to venice

ALONE :)